I refuse to believe your really gone..I keep telling myself your gonna come walking into my house and make it seem like everythings fine and your gonna kick everyones ass for saying you were dead... You're not gone.. I know your not gone.. you just went away for a while.. your coming back.. and I'll be waiting for you.. even if I have to wait till the day I die.. I love you so much and I miss you like crazy. I've known you forever.. You've always been there for me and never left my side. Even if I was totally pissed at you, you'd always make me laugh and find someway to make me forgive you.You were such a wonderful person and you were so kind to me. You were my gift from God Jeff. You always make me smile and feel good about myself. My whole family loved you Jeff. They thought you were so amazing. They wanted you to live us one time. But they thought your parents would never agree to it.. lol. I miss you so much Jeff. You were truly my everything. You were the only guy my mom trusted in my room.. like that one time Shelby surprised me with you and you just ran around my room and read my poem that was about you.. then you made me right another one. Lol I'll never forget the times we were together. I think about you everyday. You were an amazing person Jeff. You were so kind to everyone and you made me laugh my ass off since 3rd grade. You were the first guy I ever truly cared about. God fucked up. He shouldn't have taken you, Jeff. You were so amazing and so perfect at everything. I miss you so much. I didn't even cry this much for my Grandama dude, that's love. lol.I love you Jeff. I Always have. You were the sweetest person on the face of this earth and no one will ever forget you. Your NOT gone.. I know your not. I see your face everywhere. Your always on my mind. Me, Anna, Shelby and Sara dedicated a song to you.. we play it atleast 100 or more times a day. I just sit back in my room and think about everything that we did together, all the times we were together, and just everything. Everything reminds me of you. I've never cried so hard for anyone in my life..you were truly my everything and such an amazing person. You continued to amaze me everyday in everyway. I can promise you I'll never,ever forget you (even though your not gone..) I know you probly don't want anyone crying.. but we can't help it Jeff.. it wasn't your time to go.. we were suppose to get married remember! =] You always knew how to put a smile on my face.. along with everyone else you ever talked to. Your my angel and forever will be. You'll never leave my heart. A lifetime of tears are cried for you everyday your gone. I love you forever and forever we will be best friends. I guess God really does work in misterious ways... I hate how he took the first guy I ever really cared about. I love you so much Jeff. You will remain in my heart until the day that I die. I know your not gone..but I still believe your watching over me and everyone else. So many people care about you Jeff. It's amazing. We never thought we'd ever lose you so we never really got the time to charish everything we did with you. Well, I know I did, and I know ALOT of other people did too. I always thought of that God sent you to me for a reason. You've helped me with so many things ever since the day I met you. I remember in 5th grade at the Softball Tournement.. I was soooo nervous going up to bat.. and then I heard you telling me "Everything's fine.. just pretend its just me and you playing and I really pissed you off.. just hit it like you wanted me to run like anything to get it" and I did.. I hit it pretty far and I think I got to Second or something. I also remember the 1st day of 5th grade I didn't know alot of people in our class and you stuck by me. I really liked that. :) Then on the big feild trip when we went to The Fox Theatre, Turner Feild,The Varcity, and Fernbank.. we had sOoOoO many good times there it amazing. And I remember every one of them. I remember in ASP when you, me,drew and anna always did the Mini Me hugs! lol that was so much fun.. I miss you man. I miss you so much. But I know your not gone.. and at any minute your gonna come walking through my door and give me the biggest hug ever... and i'll be waiting until that day.. I love you. And I miss you... I cry everyday for you.. and I listen to the song Me, Anna, Shelby, and Sara dedicated to you. You'll always be in my heart. I love you -- You'll always have my heart. xOxOx* July 18th 2004 ~ A Lifetime Of Tears Have Been Shed For You On This Day And Forever Will Be.
-- Trish